Grinding to a halt

if it was all just quiet for a moment
people stopped talking
cars stopped flying past with such urgency
the rain held off for a day or two
arguments were silenced
clouds parted and the sun came out
birds didn't whistle a tune
televisions didn't blare out at us
and we all just sat down for a moment
and we gathered our thoughts 
and we thought really hard about our lives
and we solved the drama's that occurred
and we stopped letting the bad things get us down
and we all just sat and didn't make a sound
and the silence became a noise in our minds
and people started getting anxious because there had been no sound in a while
and it was just time ticking away 
and we couldn't keep a hold 
and all those things we had said the day before have all flooded back
and you sit there just drenched in this guilt
and you can barely breathe in without wanting to cry
and you think so hard about the why 
and the reasons behind all of this typing 
and all of this time
and the silence is still there 
and people seem to be used to it
and the calmness finally steps in 
and relieves us all
and the sun is shining so bright 
and wanting to lift all our spirits 
and its just what we needed a moment to ourselves
in this busy hectic over dramatised life we live in
the pushing past people in a rush to make it on time
and playing music loudly into our ears not making a sound
and just not making contact with anybody we see
and not letting people into the eyes that hold our keys
the keys we protect with all that we are
and the cars are now noisy and going too fast
and everybody is just rushing through every day of their lives
and nobody just sits and thinks about it
nobody just takes a moment to understand it
everybody just acts too quickly
and then its too late
people make mistakes and hurt peoples feelings
people get angry and just shout out their words
people destroy things which have taken such time to rebuild
nobody can see it but i feel it daily
the pain in peoples expressions or the way that they walk 
the way they make eye contact before darting past you in a hurry
a hurry to get somewhere that probably doesn't matter
slipping through people in queues 
anxiety and stress and stress and stress
and not enough time! speak later! i'm busy! now is not the best time!
and im sorry it was the weather, the lack of sleep, the alcohol
the panic, the worry, the pushing past crying
the stopping the slowing down the taking a moment
the feelings they've appeared and i realise my mistakes
i feel it, i let it in and i relax and hear it
my mind is calmer its slowing down, not my pulse racing
move slower, take more in, enjoy it all
i like him, i miss him, i wish i didn't react so quick
its ok its ok its ok its ok
im slowing down
im grinding to a halt...
I've stopped now.