silenced

You can be so full of words and in an instant something is said that shuts your mind off.

There is no where to run to when you are the voice of reason

You are the one they chose to open up to

The one to share such a close secret with 

You aren't ready 

I mean what makes you prepared for that 

But they look for guidance 

They said they felt they could and they wanted to

Scary when it's something you are familiar with 

Something you can personally sympathise with 

Hits you 

So you think

What would you want to hear 

What would help you

You tell them not to hide from it

You tell them not to be ashamed 

Life can be difficult

We all manage it differently 

Never hide from yourself 

We all get strength from somewhere 

And as a result this will strengthen you 

They look pleased and upset by your answer but almost like they'd hoped and knew you'd understand 

Thankful 

They looked at me

Because I am their guidance 

I am their confidante 

I did my best

Does not mean it was easy though.. 

Mental Health Awareness

Do you ever feel like this
Like the whole world is after you
Pulling you backwards to alleyways you know you can never leave
Pulling you through the stingers and leaving you harmed
Like whenever you finally feel good about something they start a new chapter of hate
Do you?

Do you ever feel like this
Like the bones that hold you up are being weighed down
That whatever you do to fight them, they always overthrow you and pull you straight to the ground
Do you ever feel stuck
Stuck in the corner between a rock and a hard place
Losing not only the strength to fight but the will
Do you?
Have you ever?
Ever caught a glimpse of your reflection and not liked its look
Seen the dark pits of sadness in your eyes
A phone full of numbers but not a soul to call
Like no one would listen anyway
Or even care

For I think this is depression
Mental health is rife
Mental health is powerful
Like a troll on the Internet its an inner voice on repeat
It does not stop
Even when the battery is low the messages keep coming
Ping ping ping
It feels like a helpless pity
One you'd never share for worry it would bring others down
Others might be scared of your thoughts
Scared of knowing you
Or guilty should you react
Carry blame for your actions
Mental health is what kills our generation of teenagers
The youths who would not confide
The adults who felt ashamed
The elderly who feel lonely
It continues to evolve and worsen as the ideas and online how to videos take the social media by storm
Millions get pulled into this psyche of hate and do not know where to turn
When you ask someone how they are? Do you even wait for the answer
Is it a yeah you? Answer
Not a blind bit of notice given to the lost looks in these humans eyes
Their souls feel damaged and they need help but rarely ask
Instead they take matters on solely
They take pills, buy ropes, drugs, knives
They battle with last words on a piece of strewn up paper
They cry into pillows from the pain inflicted
They struggle
And then the heart stops
The pain has left them but spilled out around them
Around them their families lives are forever changed
Forever taken back through this ongoing reel of horror
Of the whys and what ifs
The ever-growing torture that battles their dreams and steals their sleep
It takes one minute
One person to reach out
To listen
Never struggle in silence
Reach out

You'll never know how many people feel this way
Passing in cars, sharing a chair on the train, shopping in your supermarket
Be kind
Be available
Help them.