Barricaded in and stood their like herd
Awaiting instructions
Can we stay? Can we go?
Who have we lost
Getting daily death totals like thats a normal occurrence
The heart is just under water
That sunken feeling has become the norm
Not a thing we can do
Shut up and put up
We all look so different these days
The worry and anxiety floods our eyes
Our faces masked but the way we feel is all you can see
It is reflected in the eyes of students, children and my parents
The pain drenched us as we stand socially distant
We'd do anything for a hug
Anything to feel that closeness
That protective parent hug that took away every pain as a child
Banged knees or grazes and a hug from Mum and Dad would sort you out
It used to be counting the days until we saw eachother again, now I can list off the months I've waited
Life is just not real, is it?
Surely this is the worst dream I've ever conjured up
Surely 2020 had more to give us
As we count down the final days of the year,
We start to think about the gratitude we have
How we are here to at least miss those instead of grieve them
How scary some experiences this year have been
How some are ongoing
That progress is being shown week in, week out
How it's not all been doom
We have seen what is important
A huge jolt, slam your brakes on epiphany
It hurt us all but it stuck
It really made us see with open eyes
What existence is...
Fleeting, important and family is the core
For, without that we are not grounded
We are not safe and secure
We all need it
Merry Xmas 2020
PS a toast and thought for Joey 🌹
