I close the window and I start to clear it all up
days like these weren't too often but took so much out of me
the room is feeling still for the first time in months
I am starting to miss your presence
I am de-cluttering and sorting and trying ever so hard to keep your scent
your chair is starting to look out of place
the flowers have seen better days
petals on the floor
I don't remember your laugh any more
the old family videos bring it all back though - although to listen is still tough
to keep the loving memory alive was never hard
I envisage you all from time to time
The sun is trying to push through the clouds, as my smile is through the tears
and I am sitting down in the garden with a glass in my hand
and I remember your voice - it arrives out of nowhere
it makes me feel safe and warmed
I don't need the sun for warmth any more
I know you are listening and watching my words
and I will pray for you for all of my life
and this house won't be the same but will never forget
all our memories live out once more
in the shadows when the daylight fades
cars are fewer and the times are replayed
I breathe in deep all of the moments
I smile with the love
we slip away out of this room
glance through the window
petals on the floor
pictures of the moments on the wall
vowing to never forget it all
R.I.P
