Your steps

Walk to my door
Let yourself in
I am expecting you
You are late
We always knew
We knew it all
You were so terrified
So scared
It was hard to watch
We wish we could of intervened
But unfortunately it is one of those things
We can't tell you
All your life is your own
We all have our ideals and expectations but life can come around and slam those
We are fine
Your life will be soo happy
You have finally found it
Your destiny can be drawn
Clearly scripted
Clearly defined
Clearly love

Illustrated abstract

Riddled in self loathing
Can't seem to wash off the stains
Struggling to breathe in this world full of filth
Looking for excuses to climb from this well
The well I had made too many a wish
Grabbing all I can get and running with tears streaming down my face
My hair is knotty and dirty
My face is weathered and exhausted
My feet want to move on, sick of carrying this shit load around
Nails dug deep in mud
From the times i fell down
Drunken or wasted from narcotics
I draw a picture to explain my thoughts
Its all black
Circles and smudge
Just a large smudge
My life is soo drained
Oh to be someone else
Vivid dreams make me lose my step
Broken shoes
Cut knees
Blood trickling
No light at the end of this tunnel

Never have I ever

Never have I ever
That's the game we should play
I'll tell you a secret if you promise to make my day
I'll try and be honest and tell you how i feel
Ill wear my heart on my sleeve
Well I'll try to at least.

I will describe my day at work and how i wish i came home to a familiar face
How sitting alone can get tiresome
And that living alone is a battle
That I'm stuck in this rut and i can't find the light
And I'm fighting my fears and trying to do right
That I'm craving love and to be loved in return
That my life seems so lifeless and I can't see the turn
I cant see the way off of this beaten old track and I'm so scared of losing all I want back
That i push anyone away who could possibly change all this and that
And that some days i wish i could just dream it back
I fight with my feelings i fight with my fears i fight with my smiles i fight with my tears
I wish it and hate it and want it and need it
I told you I'd be honest
And the weight lost is a relief
I cant keep on lying and burying deep
All that i yearn for all that i weep
I just want my happy ever after
To be real and to fill my heart with love and laughter.