And What Is....

and what is the ending
is it the last breath
the last beat in our heart
or is it a life without love
is it that moment in which you have nobody and nothing
and you are just walking around in this life empty
what does it mean to have nothing

and what is a career
is it an income on your bank statement
is it the hunger for success
or is it making a difference
can you encompass them all
wrap them up together and pop on a bow

and what is love
is it that overwhelming bliss in your heart
that feeling of complete perfection
the thinking of and dreaming of the future
the understanding between two people
the trust between two people
the link that is seamless and unable to be tampered with
the bond
the knowledge
the puzzle that is now complete
the living together and sleeping together

and what is this life
is it just the most random experience
whereby nothing is impossible
where everything is for the taking if you want it
where hard work is reaped with reward
that if you fall you can hurt yourself
that if you sleep you can dream
the continuous learning and achieving
getting that brain absorbed in knowledge
having memories and remembering them
making mistakes and learning lessons

P

Fast goes the days as your time counts down
Place a hand on your chest
Can you hear your time running out?
Does it scare you?
Does it worry you?
Is your life all what you dreamed of?

I walk into a room, and I pick up a childhood picture
I look deeply into the eyes looking back at me
Would she be happy? Is she proud of what I've become?

Is my life something that can be measured with achievement?

What's next? Where do I go next?
No book tells me, only hints at listening to my own head and heart.. but is that enough?
Are other people also in this mindset?
Can this love I have save me?
Save me more than it already has?

I mean in all honesty this love has blown me away
Taken all my fears and squashed them
I have broken out of the cage I was so clearly stuck in
My trust has been awoken and has flourished
I feel invincible most days just from the reeling in my heart
The beat feels different
Happier and more consistent
The voice she has speaks to my soul
I feel like I could fly
Is this the beginning?
It seems to become more and more each day
Each morning I wake I am so happy to be lying next to her
She is my everything
Will my career go this way?

Is this what I have been waiting for all of my life?
Holding out for her
The love of my existence
Yes
Yes, it's as simple as that.
Thank you P
Thank you from the bottom of my heart