Free fall...

Quick, I am falling here I can see the floor getting closer
yet you just stand there, like this is dreaming, like you are tripping
girl this is real, I am falling faster getting closer and you have just blinked and looked impatient
like what are you doing here, if you had no real desire to help me, protect me, support me
just to stand there now and watch me
closer and closer
I can see the houses and the fields and the sky is out of my reach
and the weather is changing and my heart is beating faster and faster as I get closer and closer
I'm screaming at you to catch me
to notice me to please look up and see me
I know you can feel me, I know you hear my heart at night
I know you feel my heart crush at the sound of your demise the sound of you leaving
the door closing, the slam of the door against my beating heart, no wall up, no trap door
just bare feelings
bare emotions
tears are falling out of my eyes as the floor is about to swallow me up
shatter my body
take apart my soul
as you just stand and wait
stand and contemplate walking away
watching you go as I accept my end
accept the last page
accept the happy ending.. was never for me
it wasn't written that way for me
it was never about me or you
just people and lives
and crashing and battling
and just waiting for that soul to meet mine
to hold me up away from the trouble
catch all my tears and keep me upright
to look up and see me fall
and to stop it all before it was too late
before you had walked away and shut that gate
wow its closer now
I can feel the pain before I even hit the floor
CRASH!!
SLAM!!
shattered and over and out
over and out
over and out
turn out the light
shut out the world 
shut it out for good..
waiting
waiting for round two
Are You Ready?

Fading Pictures

What will it mean?
What will it do? 
When I can no longer talk to you, because I have left and you will have gone and everything we had will become a none
I wont watch you with newbies, because it just hurts - I'll accept this is life and sometimes we get burnt.
I don't want your sympathy, I don't play your games, I won't challenge anybody - I think its all lame 

I won't stop the honesty as it flows through my heart, as my wound is still healing and will surely leave a mark
I won't stop you arguing or trying to upset me, I'll just accept it for now and know it will disappear one day
I ain't after pity or pretending to care for me, I am after sincerity and actuality 
reality and simplicity, new chapters, old memories

My arm does so ache as the operation still rings around my body,
the damage has been taken and left a heap of mess
the mess, it is healing but aching all the same
I sit and I wait it out 

Wait it all out
knowing the corner is coming
know that I am changing and wanting more
forgotten already
not missed - fading pictures... 

Do I ?

Catch a snowflake, hold it close, think of me 
Don't wish, don't worry - Just go out and make it happen 

Watch me walk this world and watch me pick myself up
Wait and see and nothing will be
Go out there and grab hold of the day 
Both hands, hold tight, enjoy all that you see

I think about you and I worry about the truth
I see that you see me, when we make eye contact you look directly at me 
You can see the way that I feel and you feel it too - Cuz I see it through
Your eyes - so honest - show me all your pain
Show me the tears that hide behind the rain
Hide behind the acting and want to be's 
Don't worry though - cuz you got me and I got you too

No one can ever take this from us 
Or get this 
Only us, only we - Just all about You and Me 

Friendship is love 

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Past Times

Follow me to the end of my day
follow me and try not to run away
follow me with my feelings and see how the pain is hidden
watch me smile, see ma tears hiding?

Don't tell me how I should be like you
as come on now, we all have our own lives to live on through
we cant all be the way we should be in each others eyes
we all do as we do, and Ill remember you - when I don't have a clue

Watch me get ready alone in my room
filling the silence with the music over and over
watch me draw on my smile and calm approach 
when inside I got lonely and cant find the crowds

I get entwined in peoples stories 
I figure I can help them and wish them all of my dreams 
I take away from me everyday and hand it out to the happy
I search for the past times, I long for the smiley times
I hold out hoping for the love times 
I know this is my times
But I just can't back off those people in need
I know they are full of crowds yet no one sees them cry

Follow me to the end of the day 
Watch me pack up my bags 
Watch me keep eyes fixed to the floor, music blaring in my ears
Blocking out the silence
Making it seem busy
Making me seem happy...

Compassion

Do they know the meaning?
Am I the only one?
Do I live this life alone?
I watch them play with the devil
I hear them spit their words of vile
I watch the drama all kick off
I stay back
I avoid all this and that
I have tasted the poison before
- It didn't hook me
I only hope you all will see
The way you used to be and the way you claim to be
I hope your footsteps become tougher as you trudge on through your days
Watching those you hurt and bullied become stronger
Watch them pass you on that ladder
Watch them succeed in all the ways you can't
Watch them pass exams and graduate with pride
Don't hate them - But I guess you know of nothing else
As they help you too, with the love you never dealt
Watch them sit and listen and care
and not hold this upon you, like you did to them
and when we all say goodbye and bow on our last scene
Understand my words and see that whatever you may have said or threw at me then
Today I am okay 
I am strong 
Do they even know the meaning?
Compassion
Determination
Inner Strength 

Waves

Enlightened by the prospects of a new place to be
the sun the sand and most importantly the sea
excited about the break away
fully paid for, eating it all and surely drinking it all
comforted by the company
relaxed by the sounds
watching the nature around you for hours - not bustling through streets to that office
listening and deciphering the truths in your minds thought
not babbling to the brooks of codes on screens
looking up and seeing no spoilt speck
no spoilt line or cloud
just blue and blue and bluer still... non of this rainfall mess
waking up en-lifted and happy and so happy to just do as you do

The days turn into blurs compared with hours being months 
the day falls away sweetly compared to dragged out and flaky
the tears come for the happy - not for the strained
holidays come once yearly
they build you up, they bring the sunshine and the tans and the relaxed lives
but taken away, snatched like a full plate of food, you sit there ... trying to understand what you did wrong 
why you had to leave it
why it went by so fast
why every moment meant something
every word muttered rings in my ears tonight like music
music I love to hear
but forget I knew 

Crashing waves take away all that feels broken in our lives
the sun sets on the love 
we all accept our lives as they are, for we believe, it is what we deserve;
time out taught me this:
Life will be what ever you want it to be
its not about trying your best, its about believing you will succeed.

Chink our glasses to another successful brightly coloured holiday abroad,
a beautiful time was had on my 18 days break
now to crash some waves on this beach back home! 

S. France Sept 2013. Taken by Me :)