Joey, my beautiful cat

I miss you
I miss your face, your eyes and your fluffy tail and paws
I miss the massages on my arms you used to give me
I miss your lil noises your miaow and your cleaning rituals
I miss your comfort and your affection
I miss your scent and the thickness of your fur
I miss how you'd sit and listen to me ramble on
I looked to you for advice and in my heart I felt you gave it
You calmed down rows
You made us feel needed on dark days
You were beautiful
You were Joey
I will love you forever
The pain of you leaving us last night is deep and it hurts
But i trust that you are near and you will guide us through it
Like you did
Through no work and stress and anxiety
And grief of other pets and family
Through life you were with us
On holidays and sunny days and long cold wintery days
This is not goodbye
This is, I'll see you soon

You were my fur baby. You brought so much happiness to me and P. We were the ♥️🔼

Life is not the same anymore but I trust that it will repair. We will grieve and we will repair. I love you
28/12/2019
28th April 2004 - 27th December 2019

Xmas day 2019

And as we walk down the last short tunnel to the end of the year we try not to look back

To look back would make us focus less on what's coming up and this way we could trip

We try not to look back at the parts of life we have missed or the parts of life we wish to forget 

We try not to ponder on decisions we have made and those pending

We try to look at the future with open eyes

With hearts full but ready for more

Families are close but not as close as they were when the days were shorter and our skin was younger

Christmas is not the same but a new experience, a mature version which is filled with splendour and expensive meals and gifts

It's not about the falling asleep and trying to dream, waiting for Father Christmas but the trying to stay awake as the clock ticks down the day, 

Work is full and gets fuller each year as our experience and expertise grows

We are not planning weekends but years in advance and its exciting

Our life is round and full

My heart beats and its happy

I have few close friends left but those left matter

I have close colleagues who find the good and keep it

I have family full of warmth memories and the best hugs and a cat who has given me fun and love for almost 16yrs

Then there's my wife

She's a perfect day in a wretched sleet filled view

She's the soft in the rough and she's my life

Sunsets are stunning glistening off her eyes and I look forward to each year we celebrate together entwined 

mind play

And who creates the time we make in our minds

Who makes the people move and hug and kiss

Who creates the barriers up high above heads so noone can ever look in

Never see the masterpiece sat so close but so far from the human eye

Who creates the ties that rebuild shattered hearts and lives

Who pulls the skin together and seals the lines to stop the blood from pouring out and leaking onto the newly painted walls, the newly fitted flooring that covers the old ruins of the previous surface, tarnished from anger and rows 

Tarnished and then banished below the flooring that is neatly applied on top

Using it as support 

Walking over it everyday 

Recreating the original pictures with the new memories 

Not rowing but loving and enjoying

The moments in our minds could play out forever

See a moment in one's mind can be edited and slowed down and can really zoom in to detail 

Almost like a deep dream that you wake from

The random specifics that you recall sit deep in our imagination 

They come out to play in the night time when you are quiet enough to actually relax, drift and think

Make it up as you go

Like an abstract picture

Or a random joke

Or this poem