So I came to sort my meds but I’ve grabbed a coffee too
I had your choice of drink and some cake like you would, too
I was quite ok but then I heard your song and in that moment I could have cried
I look around this shop and I’m hit with memories
Which is strange as we’ve never been here
You hated shops but would have liked this one
Lots of aisles but very quiet
It reminds me of the trips we had getting garden furniture
Or the times we went crazy for Xmas dinner
All those moments and conversations
Getting excited by buying for our houses
New towels and supplements
Shower gels and deodrants
It feels surreal that we are at this junction
That it collided and ended all of a sudden
It actually hurts to think of life without you
But I know that it’s started and that’s the way it’s become
I would always have you to answer my questions to give me guidance and advice and patience
But with that no more it feels quite lonely
Dying our hair and choosing the dinners
Diets and adulting
It was so fun
The early days the best
The memories flow by and tears fall down
Because I know that was over for a long time
We became tired and same old
We struggled to find smiles in the queues
We avoided time out at all costs
Stayed in and had it delivered was the decision we lived with
It took away the excitement of buying
Of being together and coupling
For the chats about plans and our future
Became silent and left with barely a mutter
The laughing and flirting became Netflix and chill
The gaming took over our time at will
It became the new normal and harder to find the path back
For the more we carried on the more we forgot
The dates flew by and the passion went stale
The passion for us and creating our fairytale
Instead it was screens of distraction
Followed by grief and horrific diagnosis
The treatment took away the dignity
The pain took away the fancy
So I sit here and remember all of the fun
The absolute complete that I had felt
That we created a home from a white walled building
To have a house with boxes and bags in
The life and soul had left the party
It had left behind a white noise so nasty
That it left us hurt and scared and lonely
And with nothing more than the thoughts that I type now
The cuddles and comfort are no longer
The sale of our house is ever nearer
The rings are in boxes away from the sunshine
And our love ended
There’s no more to say now
