Don't worry, the title is not how I feel it is just the name of my fave song on Coldplay's new album - I adore the album and this track is so relaxing
I am feeling so happy these past few weeks... only bad has been over missing my family as my parents, sister and brother in law are in France until Sunday and I miss chatting to them whenever I want to... truth is they are all so busy with life it wouldn't make a huge amount of difference if they had been here all week.. if I really think about it.
But still... it is just how I am sometimes lol
I was just about to get off and go to bed but I had this thought cross my mind...
I needed to get it down to you... as a record of my findings and acceptance
"&& then you realise all this pain.... was for the smiles you have now.. it was all meant to be this way"
I was let down this evening.. for a reason you would all consider quite valid.. not the new guy in my life no (he is the reason I smile) - no this was somebody else.. and the thing is I could just allow it to go and fall away with the evening, but it is not the first time and it is something I struggle with... I am the kinda person to believe in people, and believe unless they completely prove me wrong to the point of tears and hurt, that they are genuinely nice people and dont mean to let me down continually
Although, speaking to my guy before I came to bed, he may have a point... this person may just not be bothered...
Not nice no... but is it time I let it go?
Let it blow away in the cold autumn night?
Good night people
On with the mad dreams I go... as to add, mine last night have been through my mind a few times today crashing into the walls of my conscious processes... of really old faces from before the days of Uni... what is the meaning of that??
"So its over, this time I know its gone, Salt water, tasted it too long..."
Amazing Lyrics.... COLDPLAY - MYLO XYLOTO
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