Some home truths...

I have decided to be a bit honest with this now, and I am aware this is another blog for today, but bear with me


I have this real problem, its not something I discuss that much even though its something on my brain a hell of a lot on a day to day basis. 


My past is in many different shapes and sizes and I feel there are blurry areas which may or may not have damaged me over the years.. 


Now I didn't want to use this to get too personal on but it is also not something I have ever really shared in my personal diaries. 


I have experienced things in my past which I don't wish to delve into too much but I do feel that even today several years after, the scars are still healing..


This process of the heart and mind and these two battling it out over situations in life is definitely something I agree with, and struggle with frequently.


I have already been open to discuss my current situation, the fact that I am female and that I have a girlfriend and I am now aware you whoever you are, will be now creating this image of me in your brains... 
you will be creating this idea of who i am and what i must be like because of the way i show love to somebody else.


i dont want this to be about my sexuality, or about peoples idea of the identity somebody should possess in order to be granted this title but it is about the swings and roundabouts I have tackled in my 24 years of living.




I don't wish to categorise myself as it is not something I am comfortable with anymore. I wish to say that i am just in love with the individual and that is as much as I wish to state. The reason i used a "title" was to help others understand my current preference without confusing them too much on the details of how i actually feel inside.. 


I have had times in my life that have pushed me off the opposite and if I was to be brutally honest I could say these are the reasons behind my lack of trust in men... 


I just wanted to bring up the thoughts that have clogged my brain as late, the feelings I may have switched off for me to hear the quieter voices at the back of my heart


mind vs heart- I believe these two work together, and these two work apart and it will continue like this... 


There isn't ever a clear 100% answer to what we are as individuals, but for now I am happy with where I am. 


That is all... 


TC .x.