If I Could

If I could I would reach down and take it from you
Like a parcel I would remove it from your reach
I would hide it away from your eyes and pray you don't remember on the nights that you wake 

If I could I would talk you through the dealing
stop your heart from reeling
when it remembers the truth and it hurts and it cuts you
I would stop the day from ending
so you fall asleep in the light
scared of the dark, scared of the dark

If I could I would be there for you till the end
till the end of our lives
but we both know I won't be
we carry on this dance
this acting out the days
this pretending it will never end

If I could I would hold you
I would hold you till the tears finally gave in
till you felt strong enough to deal
till you accepted it
till you faced it
till you learnt to live with it

If I could
If I could... I would help you more than I seem to do right now
than I did all those nights of no sleeping
and just battling
and just trying to stop yourself from crying
I won't forget you
for you are someone who mattered
and forever you will stay in my heart
whatever happens 
whatever changes
forever in my heart....
Till I leave this sunlight too
and join all of you above the stars
Until that day, I will continue to fight for people's hearts
and people's futures - in whatever way I can
until my heart stops... I won't change
I won't change