footprints in the sand

I dont ever really change how I am
I dont seem to grasp the "calm down" idea
I fall deeper than I like to tell myself I do
People get under my skin a lot quicker than they used to


I find I am jealous more than usual
I find that I am overly bothered by lack of response 
I like to blame that on an individual - like its actually her fault.. its not 


I just annoy myself a lot right now
I get hooked and I care and I hate that
I need to be more like who gives a shit


Only time will tell.... 


January Task