gorffwys mewn heddwch

I imagine you are here for a moment
I say a moment but in my thoughts you never leave
see, I would want to explain to you all the years you had missed out on
all those times I wish now I could have asked you for guidance
for help, for your opinion.
I am able to visit you these days, but you aren't here

I picture this sequence
a room with a beautiful view
one of countryside and blissful sounds
a warm summers day, or autumn - autumn can be so pretty
I pour us coffee and we just talk about life
I tell you how I am now as an adult
of all the achievements I sometimes forget
of how hard it was for me to come out and how that now I am, I am free
you would be so proud of me
I like to think you already see
see all that we do on our daily
how the days can be tough sometimes
but that as we grow older, we learn that each day is

the time passes to fast and the day has turned to night
your time is drawing near and  don't want you to go

I understand more as the years pass by Taid
life is fleeting but the memories don't fade
the memories they stay with us
eternally
for a lifetime

When it's all taken away

the day has been long
the hours felt like minutes and you have just had about enough
but you know theres things to be thought about 
and you cant just give up on it
even though the life you had just started has been put into play
and anything we know has been taken away


I play your song
the one that reminds me of you in a way you'd never know
like a secret even I kept
and Im hoping if you read this you know its you
I don't feel as happy as I once was
I always feel like I'm missing out now
like I pulled the short straw
but don't worry
that's just me
not something you can change


the feeling of you still brings the tears
and makes me feel weak all over but in a good way
and takes all the life out my day
like in your own way
but its silly
because its over
and you dont give a crap
and i dont know what to do
and i dont want to let you go because that would mean losing you
and i dont want to forget you either
and i dont want to lose who i am or what you made of me
but you appear a lot more than youd think
when i catch a train
when i am in my local city
the whole thing
I hope you're good
and just so we are clear
its always been me
to care for those who i no longer have
when its all taken away
i think of you




and to be honest
there's no problem
there's no worry
when it's all taken away
I hope that you'll stay

Forgotten

it should all just be forgotten
it should all just be a moment that we don't need to discuss again
we should not waste time telling people 
we should not waste the memories that we have 
we should just learn to remember them for ourselves
for our own time
for our own thoughts
for our own lives
our memories not to be shared
our memories not to be discarded
not to be treated as a nothing
just sit sometime and just let them in 
let yourself see them but don't tell anyone
maybe write them down if u fear you will forget
maybe keep the pictures to remember their faces
maybe search for them on-line now and then to see they are still happy
but just don't swim in it
don't feel its all got to be shared
don't feel its all everybody's business
it can be our secret
you and i 
whoever i think of 
whoever i remember 
forgotten is a fear
to forget makes me worry
to forget makes me sad
but i don't think i will 
each and every person i meet
i will shut into a room away in my mind for a rainy day
for when i need to revisit them
for when i hear that they have moved on 
or left this world and left me in it
i do hope those i do not speak to or see any more are happy
like i am 
like we should all be 
at least someday, anyway




*NOT FORGETTING THE PEOPLE WHO GOT ME WHERE I AM TODAY*