Fears and terrors

The curtain fell and i was left with the ending
The applause just carried on for what felt like hours
I couldnt catch my breath
I couldnt believe it had just happened
I didn't feel ready
It felt too fast
I was choking on my breathing and noone seemed to notice
The back stage staff just walked passed me and praised me
I thought to myself who would ever just do that
Who would open there heart up like that to strangers
Pour everything out to all who would lap it up
Hear the sniggers
Watch as they swallowed hard on my tough times
Its ok though its ok
I'm awake
I didn't
It was a panicked dream
A nightmare drenched in fears
Its ok
I have my secrets
I have my dignity
I have me