That's just how it is sometimes...

That’s just how it is sometimes..

Sometimes you sit and think of better

Better times that have been and gone

Those times that passed so quickly but now fill the brain as the ones you miss most

Shivery touch, is what you crave,

The good shivers that make you feel so alive

The ones that bring the tears to your eyes on the cold winter nights

The night has come just as quick as it always did

But it feels darker than before

It feels colder and more aggressive in its ways

I can’t help but think this trash I type

I can’t help it and sometimes I don’t want to

I think the best writing comes from the pain or the love

Well this is both – painful lost love

I don’t wish you bad times,

I don’t wish you happy

I just wish you life

Alive and breathing,

Alive and seeing it all

Smiling and laughing

And seeing it all

Every last second,

Moments, tripping up on the memories of it all

All the 24 years of life

Piled up against the wall

Piled so high,

I just can’t see passed it anymore

I walk to the door,

I take one last look behind me,

I thank it all,

I forgive it all,

Then I close the door...