Remember our little things
The things only we knew
Angela rayner from redditch
The cat lingo
Our little ways, the love language we had embedded into 8years
Never did make it to 10 did we
I always thought we’d make it to forever
That was before we changed
Before life threw the curve balls
They didn’t curve our life though did they
Came flying at us, at a rate
A rate of knots
Took us out thrown into the abyss
Winded for months
The agony and pain never did heal properly
Sealed but never the same
Healed but never the same feeling
Numbed in parts
The eyes didn’t glimmer
Not like they used to
They had dulled out
We didn’t trust anymore
The hugs weren’t as deep as they once were
The safety had gone
The forever had ended
The love was lost
All before my news
All before my news deepened the loss
Spread the love thinner
Less to try for
I’d never be me again
Not the me you’d met in Starbucks
You’d never be that woman I had met
The one I tore my walls down for
Bared it all for your eyes
For you to disregard me in years to come
I don’t know where my walls are any more
They got destroyed in the storm that took with it the possessions
The memories torn off the walls like rubble
Pictures that told stories
That captivated smiles and laughter
So many sunsets had we witnessed
In our loving embrace
So happy to have found each other
Told the story of our love
The impossible match
The excitement of dates
The safety all wrapped up in you
I hung on to your every word
I got lost in your eyes
Did anything to make you smile
Changed my whole life for you
So yeah I’m talking about us more these days
I’m telling the stories as the pain begins to soften
For I have grieved for so much
This past year or more has been so difficult
But without you by my side
It’s taken some time
Time to adjust
I’m still learning my own path
My own direction
There is only one set of footprints now
And I know sooner rather than later, I will stop looking for yours ….
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