A moment of clarity for N

Closer and closer
We fall into line and we look forward awaiting instruction
Nobody could tell you about how it could be
It is an unspoken and it is unruly and in that, addictive
You stand there baring all, but you aren't scared
Nothing can hurt you anymore
Life threw enough at you and you feel ready for what might be next
The lieutenant is now walking towards you all
You can't see their face
They stop almost touching your arm before they shout out numbers
You don't even flinch
You are so ready for this
All your life had led to this moment and you are not worried
There is no anxiety left
Your youth drained you of fear and nerves and left only your resilience and fight behind
You know it could be a long time before you see your loved ones but you are ready
For you have waited so long
It must feel so exciting to have finally succeeded.
We had waved you off weeks before and we now watch as post falls to the floor for the letters
We await updates and news and phonecall slots
We are your family
We will support you eternally
I will support you brother..
In whatever you choose to endeavour
I trust in your choices
And I love your determination