Twists and turbulence

Should they ask who I am
Tell them who I was
Tell them back in the day I mattered
If the name rings a bell
Tell them I'm swell tell them I've moved on and I'm happy
Don't tell them of the sadness
Or of the confused thoughts
Or of the lost in the darkness
Tell them I'm strong and able and free
And how I have bettered myself

I lie in my bed at night
And the whole world just spirals
I feel sick with the movement of woes
I can't see past it
And I'm scared for my future

I try everso to keep up
Keep my smiles strong
Keep my head held high
Ignore the bad words
The vile vibes
the people who don't matter
It's tough
It drains
I'm tired
Turn out the light
Let me rest
Just for a moment
Let me close my eyes and float away