I love this track

ONE WEEK UNTIL CHRISTMAS DAY!!!! 

:-)   

Happy Sunday People!!! 

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16th December 2011 "Just A Poem"

Poetry of times that have been

Withered old hands,

Silky feeling skin,

Clothes all knitted and the night has drawn in

Turning up the fire

Sitting down so carefully

Slippers on tucked in and the telly is flashing images

The cat is asleep on your chair

You are alone

You think about the past times of youth

You smile to yourself

You feel the memories flood in and you watch them dance out in your mind,

You remember the day of your wedding

You remember the first time you held your first born,

You remember graduating; you remember walking up the ladder of life,

You remember the funerals; you remember the heart ache,

You remember the tears and how it all sat still

How the earth felt like it had paused for that time

How the sun felt less bright

How the rain seemed to carry on falling even in the summer sun

How the waves in the sea seemed much darker than before

How the house felt so empty

The fire crackles and it makes you pause

You look over at the mantel piece

Decorated with pictures of those amazing passed by memories

Grandchildren, weddings, graduation,

Heart pours out onto the fall,

That fluffy carpet is covered in love and amazing moments in life.

Thankful, able to leave now it’s all played out

The play of your life has had its encore

The audience are on their feet, clapping to every note of your gratitude

The curtain slowly meets in the middle for one last time,

The cat purrs loudly,

You take a deep breath and you close your eyes...

Outside its snowing, outside its calm

The stage is now empty...   By KimFace 

The Winter nights are so still....

Winter as a child was the most anticipated time of my year
I was blown away with excitement over the magic that surrounded December
Starting with the advent calender, thrilled with the countdown everyday
The Coca Cola advert, telling you "holidays were coming"
Seeing the tree arrive after my Dad went and got it,
Decorating the tree and the house
Christmas cards filling every shelf
At night passing the warmth that streamed through the windows of decorated houses 
Writing a list of please may I haves...
Sleeping and wishing and giggling at the joy of it all


Christmas Eve was always a struggle,
I would have my Christmas hat on and my smile so wide
leaving carrots and mince pies and just running around
and trying so hard to fall asleep
waking at any noise


Morning would come, 
presents filled my room,
stocking was full of wrapped treats
lots of food to be eaten
lots of family to see
lots of wows and thank yous over what others received
giving and giving and giving some more


Those memories forever in my heart
Forever on my mind
This year is a little different
But only because of where I am
Not because the feeling has gone anywhere
I am always a child in my heart and I still buzz with excitement when I see decorated houses, lights and trees and just a warm familiar feeling arrives


I do wish you all a great Christmas
To me Christmas will always be about my family,


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What do you do.. when you have run out of answers?

Evening

I took this picture- Its a view from my kitchen window

Tonight I was thinking a little about what is next.

Where will I be this time next year? I could have never guessed being where I am now...

I have so much I want from life.

I think I will start saving and planning ....

What a day today.... Rollercoaster

This song came on this morning as I stood, waiting for my bus, in what can only be described as Frickkkkkkin cold weather!!!

Surprised?? Of course not, it is the UK we are renown for it! :) 

Today was just one of those days, other than this and other songs popping on blowing me away with the lyrics- the whole OMG this song was written just for me - moments, but Work was stressful... I got upset twice.

I don't think now that I live alone and that I have my own space, I deal with things in the same way as I was so used to.

I have never been the quiet person, but I am sure by reading this, this is something you have come to realise- if not, there it is for you

I used to go home, when I lived in Liverpool and spend the first 10minutes filling my house mates in on my stress-filled day as I frantically cooked dinner and made my lunch for the next day, then I'd retire to my room and there I would stay until morning in most cases.

Then when I lived with my parents this yr, I was in an r'ship for the majority of it, so I would call her up and discuss the goings on of my day until she'd had enough..

It has been a while since I just blabbed all to my mum or brother or dad, but yeah on the odd occasion my sister will be filled in, over a 2 hour convo... we both have these necessary convos now and then, when we both have that spare second of life to think about it.

But I do think I changed a lot this year, I had become reliant on an individual and I needed to replace her when she was no longer present, but I think now its hit the end of the line... other than blabbing to my mate tonight after work, as we had a post- OMG that week was tough - drink, I don't have that many people in mind to bore... 

So tonight I came home, after my drink and I put my laptop on and I put the telly on and I ate food that I pretended constituted an evening meal.. and I didn't say a word.... Until now... and even now I am not speaking to anybody in particular... just myself in a strange way and anybody who reads it. 

I don't write this because I think its a problem, I don't think OMG I have no one to tell.. I just think, finally I don't need to blab it all to anyone who will listen.

There is still that person I tell things too, and without him I would prob's explode with emotions but yeah... 

Now I am not as open... Experiences make us wise up.. Reliance on anybody but yourself is one dangerous ass game!

One I don't wish to delve into again this year.

Binding time.... 

I have broadband!!! :)

Will be able to blog a bit more now :D


Have a great Friday People!!!!


"Let the sunshine, let the sunshine baby"

Wrong time of the year for that wouldn't you say?

I saw Rihanna 29th Nov 2011

She literally blew my mind with her voice and her beauty!!

I am such a huge fan!! 

She is my calendar for 2012 !!

Love this song...