.... free me

I was walking down this dark street 
the street lights barely led the way
I didn't have my phone with me 
to be honest it was nice just being with me


I was walking down this dark street
the moon was hidden behind the full clouds
the clouds that hinted rain was coming
that a storm was on its way


I was walking down this dark street
my head was starting to ease
the pains that I carried around with me started to fall away
into the gutter with the long boozy nights
with the embarrassment of arguments in public places
with the rows that I like to ignore
I collect the good parts and I store them away
lock them up and throw away the key


I was walking down this dark street
a car drives passed in the distance
passing the houses with lights on inside
seeing peoples movements 
missing the company
but not letting that feeling imprison me


I was walking down this dark street
it had such a feeling of calm
such a feeling of everything's going to be all right
that you cant keep thinking like you do
you cant keep looking backwards
you will trip up
you will fall over
you wont have anybody there to catch you if you continue
you need to let it go


Free me I say to myself as I approach my gate
Free me please I say as the tears start to stream
Free me now as I walk towards my front door
Free me free me free me
I say it once more
I reach for my keys
I put them into my door
I close it behind me shutting out the night
shutting out the past, shutting out the life
shutting out all those thoughts that pull me down 
that hang on and choke me 


Free me now I say as I get into bed
turn off my side light
clear my head
I let myself slip into a deep sleep
and hope the morning will bring with it the calm




I was walking down that dark street
with what felt like the world on my back
trying to ruin all that I've built 
all that I've achieved
break my smile
ruin my chances
but now I am free


*Trying so hard to stay sane* 
LAW OF ATTRACTION!

Positive

Good Evening!! 




I have started to feel better, somebody out there has brought back my smile and I am very fortunate to know this person


I know what I want from my life 


* the career
* the nice flat/house
* the nice car
* the amazing gf


these are all things I wish to look at getting now, I feel like I have just got back to being me again and it feels wonderful, spending those times alone with yourself I think can be beneficial, just to listen away to your minds thoughts


Only YOU can change your life, only YOU can make it better.


Why wait about for something to fall on your lap, just get up and get out and go grab it all!


Now for some random poem I told someone I'd write


One day, you will wake up
You will get up and get ready for your day
Make breakfast in your brand new kitchen,
Sit in your gorgeous new car
Drive to your dream job.


You will have a great day, 
The sun will be shining,
Everybody you pass will smile with you


You will get home and be greeted by your lil cat
&& sit down next to your amazing fiancée,
You will fall asleep in her arms
Kiss her on her lips,
&& think to yourself
"How lucky am I right now"


Life is something we all have 
For as long as we are allowed
We experience the good and the bad and the ugly
But we must remember to keep smiling
Keep thinking about the good 
&& let the bad fall away


Don't let the change scare you
When you feel so comfy one day and lost the next
Remember what you want from your time here
Remember what you dreamt of as a child
Remember the advice you've been given
Trust your instincts
Follow your dreams
Have faith in all that you do




Things are sent to try us
But stand back up and be counted
Stand back up and be tall
Stand back up, dust yourself off and get out of life what you desire




Law of Attraction is Everywhere