Won’t forget you

So I came to sort my meds but I’ve grabbed a coffee too 

I had your choice of drink and some cake like you would, too 

I was quite ok but then I heard your song and in that moment I could have cried 

I look around this shop and I’m hit with memories 

Which is strange as we’ve never been here 

You hated shops but would have liked this one 

Lots of aisles but very quiet

It reminds me of the trips we had getting garden furniture 

Or the times we went crazy for Xmas dinner 

All those moments and conversations

Getting excited by buying for our houses 

New towels and supplements 

Shower gels and deodrants

It feels surreal that we are at this junction 

That it collided and ended all of a sudden 

It actually hurts to think of life without you 

But I know that it’s started and that’s the way it’s become 

I would always have you to answer my questions to give me guidance and advice and patience 

But with that no more it feels quite lonely 

Dying our hair and choosing the dinners 

Diets and adulting 

It was so fun 

The early days the best 

The memories flow by and tears fall down 

Because I know that was over for a long time

We became tired and same old 

We struggled to find smiles in the queues

We avoided time out at all costs 

Stayed in and had it delivered was the decision we lived with 

It took away the excitement of buying 

Of being together and coupling 

For the chats about plans and our future 

Became silent and left with barely a mutter 

The laughing and flirting became Netflix and chill

The gaming took over our time at will

It became the new normal and harder to find the path back 

For the more we carried on the more we forgot

The dates flew by and the passion went stale 

The passion for us and creating our fairytale

Instead it was screens of distraction 

Followed by grief and horrific diagnosis 

The treatment took away the dignity 

The pain took away the fancy 

So I sit here and remember all of the fun 

The absolute complete that I had felt 

That we created a home from a white walled building 

To have a house with boxes and bags in 

The life and soul had left the party 

It had left behind a white noise so nasty

That it left us hurt and scared and lonely

And with nothing more than the thoughts that I type now

The cuddles and comfort are no longer 

The sale of our house is ever nearer 

The rings are in boxes away from the sunshine 

And our love ended 

There’s no more to say now