do I send this... Will he answer

This nightmare is not going away

It doesn't matter how strong you think you are, or whatever weight you can lift.. It all just seems to disappear when I stop and realise this is actual existence 

Illnesses are just evolving like some shitty pokemon card

And the levels they are hitting it just getting to much to cope with 

I just want my Dad home and safe

Not in some hospital 

Coping with all this mess

Whilst the world is already on its knees

I've just had so much pain in my heart

I don't think I can carry on 

Faking it till I'm making it, is becoming such an uphill battle

Can't drag myself through these dark clouds

Rainy days

Fallen leaves

But broken hearts

Buried in autumn but still buried 

Still trying to keep going

Inner resilience is being tested 

Highest setting

Hardest level

Take me away, 

Take me faraway

Let me forget it all

Please let it all be how it was

Please