These Streets Will Never Change

Walking down the streets that we know so well
watching the leaves collect on the floor in heaps
turn off our music and listen to the beats of the life around us
take it all in, long and deep breaths 

Catching that look of that stranger over there
smile back, as they try not to glare
try your best to keep your eyes level
don't whatever you do give in to the floor

The traffic is slowing as the day hits rush hour
people just gather and appear from nowhere
there are cars all around you, hustling and bustling
impatiently queuing and huffing and puffing

The lights change to green and off goes the traffic
faster and faster they climb in their paces
music and chatter and texting and thinking
blocking out the life, blocking out the calm

I just sit on this bench and I take it all in
and I breathe in the smells of the food and this evening
and I watch people swerve past at the quickest of hurries 
with there places to go and the places to see

I get up brush myself off and start to walk myself home
the sun has gone in and the night has surrounded us
I walk past chippys and bus stops and rowdy public houses
people chatting, and laughing and getting on with their evening

I put in my headphones, turn on the Ipod and start listening to my music
blocking out buses and cars and passers by
walking the streets that I know so well
shuffling through the leaves on the pathway below

Free fall...

Quick, I am falling here I can see the floor getting closer
yet you just stand there, like this is dreaming, like you are tripping
girl this is real, I am falling faster getting closer and you have just blinked and looked impatient
like what are you doing here, if you had no real desire to help me, protect me, support me
just to stand there now and watch me
closer and closer
I can see the houses and the fields and the sky is out of my reach
and the weather is changing and my heart is beating faster and faster as I get closer and closer
I'm screaming at you to catch me
to notice me to please look up and see me
I know you can feel me, I know you hear my heart at night
I know you feel my heart crush at the sound of your demise the sound of you leaving
the door closing, the slam of the door against my beating heart, no wall up, no trap door
just bare feelings
bare emotions
tears are falling out of my eyes as the floor is about to swallow me up
shatter my body
take apart my soul
as you just stand and wait
stand and contemplate walking away
watching you go as I accept my end
accept the last page
accept the happy ending.. was never for me
it wasn't written that way for me
it was never about me or you
just people and lives
and crashing and battling
and just waiting for that soul to meet mine
to hold me up away from the trouble
catch all my tears and keep me upright
to look up and see me fall
and to stop it all before it was too late
before you had walked away and shut that gate
wow its closer now
I can feel the pain before I even hit the floor
CRASH!!
SLAM!!
shattered and over and out
over and out
over and out
turn out the light
shut out the world 
shut it out for good..
waiting
waiting for round two
Are You Ready?

Fading Pictures

What will it mean?
What will it do? 
When I can no longer talk to you, because I have left and you will have gone and everything we had will become a none
I wont watch you with newbies, because it just hurts - I'll accept this is life and sometimes we get burnt.
I don't want your sympathy, I don't play your games, I won't challenge anybody - I think its all lame 

I won't stop the honesty as it flows through my heart, as my wound is still healing and will surely leave a mark
I won't stop you arguing or trying to upset me, I'll just accept it for now and know it will disappear one day
I ain't after pity or pretending to care for me, I am after sincerity and actuality 
reality and simplicity, new chapters, old memories

My arm does so ache as the operation still rings around my body,
the damage has been taken and left a heap of mess
the mess, it is healing but aching all the same
I sit and I wait it out 

Wait it all out
knowing the corner is coming
know that I am changing and wanting more
forgotten already
not missed - fading pictures... 

Do I ?

Catch a snowflake, hold it close, think of me 
Don't wish, don't worry - Just go out and make it happen 

Watch me walk this world and watch me pick myself up
Wait and see and nothing will be
Go out there and grab hold of the day 
Both hands, hold tight, enjoy all that you see

I think about you and I worry about the truth
I see that you see me, when we make eye contact you look directly at me 
You can see the way that I feel and you feel it too - Cuz I see it through
Your eyes - so honest - show me all your pain
Show me the tears that hide behind the rain
Hide behind the acting and want to be's 
Don't worry though - cuz you got me and I got you too

No one can ever take this from us 
Or get this 
Only us, only we - Just all about You and Me 

Friendship is love 

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Past Times

Follow me to the end of my day
follow me and try not to run away
follow me with my feelings and see how the pain is hidden
watch me smile, see ma tears hiding?

Don't tell me how I should be like you
as come on now, we all have our own lives to live on through
we cant all be the way we should be in each others eyes
we all do as we do, and Ill remember you - when I don't have a clue

Watch me get ready alone in my room
filling the silence with the music over and over
watch me draw on my smile and calm approach 
when inside I got lonely and cant find the crowds

I get entwined in peoples stories 
I figure I can help them and wish them all of my dreams 
I take away from me everyday and hand it out to the happy
I search for the past times, I long for the smiley times
I hold out hoping for the love times 
I know this is my times
But I just can't back off those people in need
I know they are full of crowds yet no one sees them cry

Follow me to the end of the day 
Watch me pack up my bags 
Watch me keep eyes fixed to the floor, music blaring in my ears
Blocking out the silence
Making it seem busy
Making me seem happy...

Compassion

Do they know the meaning?
Am I the only one?
Do I live this life alone?
I watch them play with the devil
I hear them spit their words of vile
I watch the drama all kick off
I stay back
I avoid all this and that
I have tasted the poison before
- It didn't hook me
I only hope you all will see
The way you used to be and the way you claim to be
I hope your footsteps become tougher as you trudge on through your days
Watching those you hurt and bullied become stronger
Watch them pass you on that ladder
Watch them succeed in all the ways you can't
Watch them pass exams and graduate with pride
Don't hate them - But I guess you know of nothing else
As they help you too, with the love you never dealt
Watch them sit and listen and care
and not hold this upon you, like you did to them
and when we all say goodbye and bow on our last scene
Understand my words and see that whatever you may have said or threw at me then
Today I am okay 
I am strong 
Do they even know the meaning?
Compassion
Determination
Inner Strength