jumping back for a peek at the past....

&& it came to me tonight
the thought I didn't request
I wasn't expecting it anyway

I looked back at the one that hurt me last year,
&& I didn't think it was all I'd made it out to be
&& I worried that I had even lied to myself
Or did I feel I could fool myself

It still hurt,
it still hurts
even now
even after almost a year
fun times shadowed by the ending

no more though
good thoughts need to flow back in
tomorrow is a new day
a new memory
a new chance


its funny cuz growin up i always thought i was someone who looked far into the future
it seems i spend more time looking back