When the leaves started to grow on the trees around my garden
I saw life starting and the sun shone so strong above and warmed the grass and my heart
I was no longer working and the days were blissful if a little scary
The times were slowly passing but I was here for it as I had nothing else
I was so positive about the outcomes and reality that my statement would change for the better
I would sit in the garden and my eyes closed coffee in hand and I would feel ok
I would feel protected and warmed
Time seemed to be flying by and I could not see an ending anytime soon
The leaves that once glistened in the sunshine were starting to die
They were changing colour and with the change came the doubt in my heart
I was saddened as they browned
Eventually the weather changed
The rain would not stop
The garden was drowning in its clatter
The leaves were strewn about the floor
No more sunshine
No more warmed heart
Just fear
Wind rain and fear
