So when I finally decide to leave this drama
I do not expect any applause for my better late than never vibe
I have always been such a work-proud person
Working up the ranks in some right little businesses
But PROUD and confident in my abilities and my progression
Even these days in the career I have now created, students look at me with disbelief at the experiences and jobs I have accumulated over my working life span
So when I look back at this time in my life
the time I worked towards through my education and life choices
DO NOT TAKE this from me
It is not yours to touch or to screw up
I worked hard to be here
I am so sick of people being those NEGATIVE fools who just wonder around the streets
waiting on positive vibes so they can come and rain on your parade
knock you to the floor and criticise you for WORKING HARD
being strong, and confident makes you arrogant
working hard and trying each day to improve makes you a beg
No
Not anymore
I have spent hours, days months and years reflecting
reflecting on things I never did
Not in the way you have written them
strewn together lies to build a case
a case that nearly took with it my life
No
Not anymore
I am not your game
This is not a level up
this is my life
I know who I am
I know my capabilities
I know my own self worth
I deserve all I put in
I will get out, ALL I put in
You can hate me
Envy me, try and pull me down
But I will no longer listen
I will not give you the time of day
I am strong
I am capable.
